hmmm . . . i don't really know how to explain my feelings right now.
i told my sister that it was overwhelming. and that's just the beginning.
i was inspired, humbled, frustrated, impatient, humbled, in awe and awe and awe. and stumped. for some reason, it is being so very hard to gather thoughts and focus on focusing. i am sure there are many reasons and factors to my state on heart and mind. but nonetheless, i don't really know what to do.
a few things that were celestial moments for me:
- being with my mom. so many moment my eyes just leaked tears in gratitude that she is my mom. i know the Lord must love me because He allowed me to be with my mom. everything i am is based on and founded on what she gave and handed to me.
- being with the women i adore and cherish from the Relief Society building. again, humbled and amazed at how the Lord must love me because of the tender and precious and cherished women i have been able to associate with and attempt emulating.
- hearing and loving Sister Beck's words. she never ceases to amaze me. i love her family. i love their goodness and sincerity. i love how they support and sustain her. i love her strength and her pure reliance on the Lord. i feel that she trusts His power completely and has learned to appropriately call upon that power for His miracles.
- being with melissa - aka secretary in the offices. we were together for just a few precious moments, but they were cherished. i love her. and miss her dearly.