Thursday, January 20, 2011

it's official.

yup.
two things were made official tonight.

#1 my mother created a monster. 
i am completely in love with this whole crafting world. tonight, i went to quilter's way in west concord.
it has become a little home away from home. the ladies remembered me from a few weekends ago when ellen and leah and i went and i had a little bit of a heart attack trying to figure out fabrics that i wanted and what i was going to do with them, etc. so, it was a little like coming home when i went back tonight. 

the difference however, was that i knew what i wanted. i set right out to figure out the reds and pale turquoise fabrics i wanted and "needed." and i must say i am thrilled! 


then i headed to the walden italian kitchen. divine. and the guy at the cash register likes to flirt with me. he remembered me from when leah and i went months ago! crazy! tonight i went alone. my arm has been dying lately (it gets really limp and achy and feels like it's full of lead. weird, i know. and yes, i have seen a number of doctors for it. whatever. ) so, i just did date night alone this time. 

this is an official call to all my quilting second mothers: get out here!! you will love this little tradition! and if all we do is go to the quilt store, and eat, and drive around concord, your trip will have been sooo well worth it!

 #2 i love rumi. 
who? what? maybe you already have know rumi, but i had to be introduced to him by a favorite friend, yes, mr. ct himself. 



he red this poem to me last night while i was walking around barnes and nobles looking for matched (i started reading it at porter square books while a kid next to me was reading ender's game. i read about 70 pages and was dying to read the rest!)


anyway, i was listening to ct read a rumi poem to me, and i was moved and loved it, but it was made official tonight as i read it online. wow. i get to teach sunday school this week and the lesson is about John the Baptist. i LOVE getting to teach because it guides my thoughts in incredible places. and the rumi poem hit me even more powerfully because of the thoughts i have been thinking about John and the Savior.

CRY OUT IN YOUR WEAKNESS
A dragon was pulling a bear into its terrible mouth.

A courageous man went and rescued the bear.
There are such helpers in the world, who rush to save
anyone who cries out. Like Mercy itself,
they run toward the screaming.

And they can't be bought off.
If you were to ask one of those, "Why did you come
so quickly?" he or she would say, "Because I heard
your helplessness."

Where lowland is,
that's where water goes. All medicine wants
is pain to cure.

And don't just ask for one mercy.
Let them flood in. Let the sky open under your feet.
Take the cotton out of your ears, the cotton
of consolations, so you can hear the sphere-music.

Push the hair our of your eyes.
Blow the phlegm from your nose,
and from your brain.

Let the wind breeze through.
Leave no residue in yourself from that bilious fever.
Take the cure for impotence,
that your manhood may shoot forth,
and a hundred new beings come of your coming.

Tear the binding from around the foot
of your soul, and let it race around the track
in front of the crowd. Loosen the knot of greed
so tight around your neck. Accept your new good luck.

Give your weakness
to one who helps.

Crying out loud and weeping are great resources.
A nursing mother, all she does
is wait to hear her child.
Just a little beginning whimper,
and she's there.
God created the child, that is, your wanting,
so that it might cry out,
so that milk might come.

Cry out! Don't be stolid and silent
with your pain. Lament! And let the milk
of loving flow into you.

The hard rain and wind
are ways the cloud has
to take care of us.

Be patient.
Respond to every call
that excites your spirit.

Ignore those that make you fearful
and sad, that degrade you
back toward disease and death.



















ps because em bohman is really nice, and makes me feel like she likes me thoughts, i'll upload my notes. thanks mrs. alaska for making me feel good about myself!! i hope the moose doesn't hang out at your house too often!

1 comment:

sarah said...

Hi Emily, I called my motherinlaw yesterday and she was driving around with your parents and sister! So fun, so I thought I'd tell you! Have a good day!