Thursday, March 31, 2011

last day

tomorrow is my last day working at J. Gordon Nichol & Company. 
it seems so surreal. i can't believe i am leaving. 

jamie and sarah and their kids are sooo incredible. they are the reason i have been able to come and live my dream out here. they are a crucial and vital part to the miracles and gratitude i have been feeling and experiencing. 

i wanted to do something to show how much i care. i found this quote and attempted to make a stitchery. love when i forget how long such things take. let's just say, sleep didn't really happen last night. nor will it soon tonight.

i am also making them a coupon for babysitting for 24 hours. :) hopefully they know just how treasured they are to me.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

next to normal!

this beautiful friday evening began as linda and i (soo speedily, yet legally) got to providence, rhode island from lexington, ma within an hour!! which is beyond shocking and a miracle. we met ct and brian at the union city brewery for some yummy dinner. so of course i had to take pictures of the food. i think it must just be an excuse i have - an excuse to take pictures and record the moments.

 love that ct falls asleep during dinner . . . oh wait - now awake =)

after we were stuffed, we had a speedy walk to the theater. so not a fan of spring not knowing it's here and it being freezing cold. i am determined it's spring and thus, wore only a cute jacket, not a warm one. blast. 

but soon enough we were at the beautiful providence performing arts center! we ream up to the rest rooms and i felt like jane austen walking up the stairs. so so beautiful.

we were here to see the incredible Next to Normal. ct and i had seen this musical in nyc. ct has seen it oodles of times, but brian and linda hadn't seen it yet. when i saw it in nyc, i sobbed and sobbed. during intermission, i was in almost hysterics. this time, i thought i would be a bit stronger. chuckle chuckle chuckle. not so much the case. i had forgotten to bring tissues, so grabbed a hand full of tissues from the rest room and was so so glad i had them.
i won't tell the story line. and there are some words that i cringe at. but the story is real. it is raw emotion. as we all thought and processed after the show, we talked about how so many of the hard hard things in life are based on fear. we fear pain, and thus, we hold on to dreams, and what we hoped life would look like, or a life that we think life is suppose to look like, and we create even harder moments and pain for ourselves. how often, if we just had the courage to accept and even embrace the broken moments, would we be filled with Light. 

this is the last song, Light:

We need some light.
First of all, we need some light.
You can't sit here in the dark.
And all alone, it's a sorry sight.
It's just you and me.
We'll live, you'll see.


Night after night,
We'd sit and wait for the morning light.
But we've waited far too long,
For all that's wrong to be made right.


Day after day,
Wishing all our cares away.
Trying to fight the things we feel,
But some hurts never heal.
Some ghost are never gone,
But we go on,
We still go on.

And you find some way to survive

And you find out you don't have to be happy at all,
To be happier alive.


Day after day,
Give me clouds, and rain and gray.
Give me pain, if that's what's real.

Henry and Natalie:

It's the price we pay to feel.

Dan and Diana:

The price of love is loss,


But still we pay.

Dan and Henry:

We love anyway.


And when the night has finally gone.
And when we see the new day dawn.
We'll wonder how we wandered for so long, so blind.
The wasted world we thought we knew,
The light will make it look brand new.


Let it
Let it
Let it
Let it
Let it
Shine, shine, shine.

Day after day (day after day),

We'll find the will to find our way.
Knowing that the darkest skies will someday see the sun.


When our long night is done,

Dan and Natalie:

There will be light.


(There will be light.
There will be light.)


There will be light.
When we open up our light.
Sons and daughters, husbands, wives.
Can fight that fight.
There will be light.
There will be light.
There will be light.
There will be light.

there were sooo soo many lines from the songs that i loved.  these are from another song:

We tried to give you a normal life. I realize now, I have no clue what that is.

I don't need a life that's normal
That's way too far away
But something next to normal
Would be okay
Yeah, something next to normal
That's the thing I'd like to try
Close enough to normal
To get by

soo soo many things i loved about the words, the concepts, the analogies, everything. 

i want to be apart of what frees people from the hurt and pain they live in. i want people to know there is so much more. i hate the pain that i know is real in the lives of the people i love, of people that have become family. i want to be a safe place where people know that i love them no matter what.

i am grateful i was with these people to see this show. tragically, the girl i asked to take our picture, wasn't too thrilled about it. so, a few attempts (and the fact that i had it set to the wrong setting . . a flash??!!).

 me making faces while ct sets the camera more effectively . .

linda brought us mini-cheese cakes for dessert.  what better way to share, than on the floor! we all took bites and voted on our favorites. lime wasn't in the top 4. but the dark chocolate, vanilla bean, raspberry, and mango were.

 and thus, it was a happy happy friday!!

ps ct had a meeting, but linda, brian, and i had a yummy yummy breakfast on our way home this morning in the sweet bistro 45 in north attleboro, ma. love it all!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

stake relief society meeting

today was a beautiful stake relief society meeting. 
can i just tell you how much i already love people in the cambridge stake?? and how happy and excited i am to know and love more and more people?? i'm hoping that 10 years will be enough time to do so! (cuzz that's how long i would like to be here!)

although today was lovely, getting today was crazy. and of course it was because i was "getting" to present/teach/talk. note to self: when you visit teach a member of the stake relief society presidency, you are bound to get "invited" to share something sometime. so at least my turn is over and done with!!

i got to share some thoughts about "The Beauty of Broken Dreams: When Plan A Fails". i have had many thoughts about this topic, but in sharing thoughts with women who i don't know, and who are living broken lives on a variety of levels, made things more intense for me. 

thankfully, things and thoughts came together about 5 minutes before we began! and i love the Bible Dictionary definition of Prayer on a new level, and love Sarah, Abraham, and Issac on new levels as well. 

because this is the first time i have spoken without family a wonderful friend video taped it all for me!!! i know, she gets the greatest friend in the world award!! if it ever imports for me, i'll share the video - for all those who are crazy and stuck in their houses in alaska (em, i think you would be the only one desperate enough to watch it!). 

here is a before shot. 

i didn't pass out. and no one seemed to storm out of the room. so i feel like it was a success!! :) honestly, i love the chances i have to prepare. i selfishly love what i learn while preparing and sharing what i have learned, and then gathering from those around me.  so hooray!

i think i uploaded the videos to youtub??!!
and this is after the lesson. dearest sister lynn is the sister of a former roommate. how i LOVe that she is here in the boston stake. and now, just need her in myward!!

i got home, changed clothes, and went with some friends to look for furniture. random, but mr. brian rich is moving into his own place in two weeks and needed a couch. blessed west elm. he had told me about the really cool pallette's they had displayed and amen, they were pretty awesome. i took lots of pictures so that perhaps we could replicate it . . . not only in his apartment . . . BUT IN MINE!!!!

yup, i signed lease papers this past week for my own apartment!! i can't wait!! i will move in middle of may. mom is coming to help me get organized!!! happy happy things are happening and i feel like pinching myself to make sure it's all real!!

here are a few pictures . . .

now i'm off to bed. will get up early early to prepare for a sunday school lesson tomorrow, and be ready for a trek meeting at 7 am, then get to church early to cut fruit and veggies for the linger longer . . . and then . . . SLEEP!! sweet dreams. :)

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

maple sugaring!

today - despite the rain and mud - i got into the back of a dark blue honda odyssey with mrs. jennie preece, and carter preece. the bench in front of us held the lovely cate preece, miss hanise, and the stunning sammy preece. front row included mr. mike preece and as co-captain, the rad ruby.

thanks to my incredible boss, i earn 4 hours a week off. which was the perfect amount of time for us to head up to turtle lane farm in north andover. it is a family owned operation - backed by the entire town of north andover. a few years ago, the family went to new hampshire to see a maple sugar farm in production. when they got home, one of the four daughters asked if they could tap their trees. and four years later, they are tapping 500 trees!!!

the mom and dad work full-time in other careers and the maple sugaring is a "hobby". who does that?!?! talk about fun fun fun!!